‘Come and be inspired,’ said the flyer
Women will tell their soul stories
sing their heart songs
gift us with hope and laughter
and well-earned tears
But I will not be there
Unable to breach the wall, stuck
at the bottom of the stairs - again -
I long for the inspiration,
the connection and camaraderie they will share but—
I cannot be there
If you are looking to me for inspiration:
nope, not today
I do not feel graceful about this loss
this being left out - again
My upper lip is not stiff
my chin is decidedly not up
I allow myself to wallow in bitchiness
and well-earned tears
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september 24, 2018 . DRAFT
terri grayum
